i couldn't concentrate in class .
{23o8o8} you'll be missed and loved by tampines sec , i believe .
when i reach to school saw alot of people discussing about the suicide .
then when i went towards yuanjin they all i started crying , then wenfang hugged me .
i hugged her and say :"IT WAS THE TISSUE BOY LEH !" then i was crying so loudly that attracted the attention of other people . wenfang was also quite shock . cause it was the boy i'd always waved at .

stop staring , stop staring ! i'm just crying , over my dead friend ! don't stare !
It's the day i cried the worst in my secondary 1 life .
imagining your friend commited suicide .
i know he didn't want to , i know .though you're gone , i feel that you're still with us .
Still here , as though a wearer had just left the room , the perfume stills lingers on .

Why is heaven so unfair ?
you shouldn't have died , if it's not for your friend .
i can't believe wednesday was the last day i've met you , when i was going up the hall for assembly .you were still smiling and waving at me , as cheerful as ever . It shouldn't have happened ! NO !
When i heard the news from my friend , i never thought it would be you ! you .
i was still joking about 'till my father bought the newspaper .
And when i turned over th page , shockingly , it was you !
i thought my visions were playing tricks .
i then burst into tears , cupping my mouth with tears streaming down .
Why does the good people don't live long ? WHY ?! whywhywhy ?! why is heaven doing that to him ?!

outside the window , raining .
inside , i'm crying .

he done nothing , nothing at all ! It was his friend , who pulled him down to his death ?!
he should at least be given a chance ! HE SHOULD ! a chance to live .
i can't accept the fact that you're gone , forever .
i remembered how i cried during the band concert .
you were the one who gave me tissue to wipe my tears and consoled me .
And you were the one who waved to me , smiling to me .
Your smiles were just so warmth and sunny .
every tuesday you would walke past the MSP class and wave to me during the lessons .
Now , that you're gone , who's going to show me that smile of yours ?
no one , no one .
HOW COULD IT TURN THIS WAY ?

i was still crying at the assembly ground . Ms shieh , Mr tan was looking .
Then Mr neo announced the accident . i cried again . tissues , won't heal the heart now .
Then Ms felicia lee walked towards me and bring me to the canteen for a talk .
people was watching me as i head for the canteen .
I was crying while she talked to me .

She say:"Have you heard of time will heal the wound ? it will heal it . after quite sometime we will put that aside and life has to go on . In our memories , there will be always him smiling as cheerful as always . i went to his funeral yesterday , he lay in his coffin , looks as normal . (at this sentence , i literally cried .) If you've cried 'till like this , what about his parents , relatives and friends ? Some cried till they can't even talk , nor move . just pray that he'll be in a better place ."

what she says did make sense . time will heal it . Just like the song 'Better In Time' and 'Bye Bye' .

And it's true that you've reached a better place.
Still I'd give the world to see your face.
And be right here next to you .
But it's like you're gone too soon .
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
Wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
-Byebye(Mariah Carey)

It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time.
-Better In time (Leona Lewis)

When i walked back , many people were consoling , especially when i cried while i hug wenfang .
Thanks many people who consoled me !

When reading newspaper , mr tan consoled me too .
during chinese lesson , i still couldn't control my tears .
it just kept flowing , flowing . Peizi told me to cry , it'll feel much better . and yeahs , it does .

i smiled during ckigu's class . but why does sorrow still shows ? i even cried during her lessons .
I'd wish for him to walk past , and wave to me .
Like what when he's alive and always do .
i told denise about the tissue boy , he was th tissue boy that i always waved to during MSP class .
She then realised , it had been him .
Don't we always realise that we don't cherish those who's in our sight 'till they are gone ?
i've finally knew that feeling of loosing a friend .
I'd always stated in my compos , about a friend died in an accident .
now , it really happpend to me . has the fiction turned into a fact ?

During C.E , i cried while Mr Tan said about the incident . sorry , but i just couldn't contain the tears . there're rumaging through my eyes now .



a song dedicated to his friends and families .
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